Setting out

This is my first attempt at blogging.  My middle daughter introduced me to this world a few months ago.  I have so enjoyed following not only her pages, but also some of those linked to her page, that I decided to give it a try.  Because I am pretty deep into grieving right now, I am imagining that at least some of what shows up here will relate to that.  However, with 9 children (4 of mine, 5 of his), 13 grandchildren, a private practice as a psychologist, a practicum and choir, there will probably be some other topics too

Day-to-day living is a real challenge at the moment.  I thought that because I am a psychologist and knew all about the grief process that I could sail right through it.  WRONG!  My grief is a tangled mess that feels like it will never get straightened out.  I am doing just fine with all the mechanics of living, but the feeling parts are all messed up.  Sometimes hurting; other times numb.

Actually, I lied about the mechanics part.  I was not eating well — I don’t like to cook to begin with, (my husband had done most of the cooking and he was gr-r-reat), and nothing sounded good, so I would end up eating M & Ms and Tostitos for supper.  M & Ms have protein you know — the peanuts.  Anyway, about 2 months ago, I decided to try Nutrisystem instead of M & Ms and Tostitos.  The benefits were at least dual:  weight loss and just reach in the cabinet, open a package, nuke for a minute or two and supper — or lunch or breakfast — is ready.  So now, that’s what I am doing.  So I guess I really didn’t lie — I am doing okay with the mechanics now.  AND I’ve lost a little over 10 pounds.  YEAH!