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Our church sponsored a Blood Mobile today. I often give blood — with type O+ blood, the vampires are always calling me to donate — and one of the easiest ways is just to hop on the mobile van parked in the church parking lot. I waited my turn only to discover that my iron level was too low to donate. What do they mean, my iron level is too low to donate. Usually, my sample sinks like a rock to the botton of liquid. Well, not today. I’ve never been anemic. Well, I am today. After some thought, I realized that a couple of months ago I had changed from my usual “women over 50″ multi vitamin to the diet plan’s “Women’s silver” multivitamin. Checked the label. Sure enough, no iron. Guess I need to start taking iron supplements separately or go back to my old vitamins.
This is my first attempt at blogging. My middle daughter introduced me to this world a few months ago. I have so enjoyed following not only her pages, but also some of those linked to her page, that I decided to give it a try. Because I am pretty deep into grieving right now, I am imagining that at least some of what shows up here will relate to that. However, with 9 children (4 of mine, 5 of his), 13 grandchildren, a private practice as a psychologist, a practicum and choir, there will probably be some other topics too
Day-to-day living is a real challenge at the moment. I thought that because I am a psychologist and knew all about the grief process that I could sail right through it. WRONG! My grief is a tangled mess that feels like it will never get straightened out. I am doing just fine with all the mechanics of living, but the feeling parts are all messed up. Sometimes hurting; other times numb.
Actually, I lied about the mechanics part. I was not eating well — I don’t like to cook to begin with, (my husband had done most of the cooking and he was gr-r-reat), and nothing sounded good, so I would end up eating M & Ms and Tostitos for supper. M & Ms have protein you know — the peanuts. Anyway, about 2 months ago, I decided to try Nutrisystem instead of M & Ms and Tostitos. The benefits were at least dual: weight loss and just reach in the cabinet, open a package, nuke for a minute or two and supper — or lunch or breakfast — is ready. So now, that’s what I am doing. So I guess I really didn’t lie — I am doing okay with the mechanics now. AND I’ve lost a little over 10 pounds. YEAH!
I am a 62 year old widow who lives in Florida. I have been married and divorced with four adult children coming from that marriage. Twenty-one years ago I married an indescribably wonderful man who died on March 2, 2008. Although he was quite a bit older than I am, until about 2 years ago he had more energy and did more than I ever did. I am very active, so it is saying a lot when I say that I couldn’t keep up with him. Therefore, it was a huge shock to both of us when he was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. His diagnosis came 3 months after my mother’s totally unexpected death (she also was incredibly active and left a calendar full of things to do when she died.) I was and still am dealing with losing her. I also ache for my children who have lost 4 grandparents and a stepfather in the past 4 years. More on that in another post
